SOMEONE TO BELIEVE

Now I am 10000% believe in my dream

but I am so afraid

They will force me to forget this dream

I really don't know what my life would be without this dream

I am just an ordinary girl

I don't want to make things difficult

5 years

Its already 5 years since this dream stayed in my heart

I just can't get rid of it 

Before I entered Form 6

They said that I shouldn't take my hobby as a career

That time my heart was completely broken

I kept crying in silent after I heard what they said

I felt like something really important had gone

Then I ask myself 

"Is there any person that I can believe?"

I don't wish that they could understand me

I just need their believe

After that

I thought as the time passes

I could forget about this dream and nightmare

But in the end 

I couldn't

When I saw other people which have the same dream as mine

And they are able to chase after it

My heart once again felt the pain

I started to ask my heart again

"Why I couldn't chase after it!? Why I'm so useless!? Why I couldn't protect my own dream!? Why!? Why!? Why!?"

My heart screamed a lot back then

It feels like I shouldn't live in the world like this

This is not my life!

If only they could believe me

Everything will be perfect

Since that day

I just know that there is no person that I can believe

I'm all alone

Even now I couldn't believe in them

I couldn't tell them I want to keep my dream

I'm so afraid that my heart will lose it soul this time