HUMAN BEING

Humans don't always get what they desire
Certain humans do think that they can get what they want
Certain humans do not think that they can get what they want
What do humans live for?
How long do I need to search for the answer?
One year...?
Ten years...?
Hundred years...?
I couldn't find the answer
Will I able to find the answer in future?
Or 
The answer doesn't even exists?
Am I qualified for being a human?
I have too many questions about this life
From whom should I seek the answer?
Humans life span
Some are short
Some are long
Some are in the middle
They are the same human being
Why are they do not live the same?
In the end
They are same but yet different

TIRED

I'm tired...

I don't even know what am I supposed to do

I'm so...so...so...tired

MY ANSWER

"I need to be stronger." 

I told myself

It's almost 1 year since I graduated from From 6

My time has stopped since then

I've calmed myself down and think for my dream and future

"Is my dream worth for me to protect?" 

I asked myself to think deeply about this question

I kept asking myself everyday

Until now

Finally I found the answer

Yes

My answer is yes

I want to do it

I just couldn't let go of it

No matter what I do

I just couldn't get rid of it

"Patissiere"

That's the only thing I want to be for the rest of my life

I have prepared for it

STOP MYSELF TO BELIEVE

I wish I know how to stop myself from believing somebody
Just like they said
"You may be deceived if you trust somebody too much."
Somehow,
I feel relieved when people don't trust me
Maybe it mixed with a bit sadness
But that's fine
Because I scared they will be disappointed
No matter what I do
I will end up to disappoint them
I rather not to do anything instead make them feel sad
Like this, I could protect their heart
But if I can be selfish for once more time
I wish they can believe in me just for this time
After that, they can choose not to believe in me ever again
I don't know whether miracle like this can happen in my life pr not
But I hope I can see it happened

*(Every time when I see the sky I feel peaceful, it feels like the sky almost take me with them. I really love that feeling.)*

DREAMS AND LIFE

I wonder how many times my tears fall for my dreams

I told myself before

My dreams are the most important things in my life

If I have given a choice between my life and my dreams

I would not hesitate to choose my dreams over my life

It is because I know that without my dreams I am nothing

I wish I can understand what lives mean

Sometimes I feel like I don't understand human at all

I don't even understand myself

"I don't regret being born."
Will I able to say it in future?

" Is it okay for me to keep living?"