FEEL, WISH, HOPE

I have said before that I care of people around me
When they are sad, sick, or anything cause them to be in pain
I will definitely ask myself
Why not me the one who in pain?
I can't see people around me sad
When I see
I hope that I can feel of what they feel
That's why 
Everytime I prayed that I could "go" first before them
Because it is too pain to see my family sad
I really care of them
People might think I'm crazy when they read this
But,
It's okay
As long they happy 
I treasure them more than anything
I don't want any of them leave me
If they leave me
I will be the saddest person in the world
I want to protect them
But I just don't know how
I want them to stay with me forever
But ours time have limit
I had went through the feeling of losing 
That's why I don't want to feel the feeling anymore
When I lose something that important in my life
My heart will feel the strongest pain ever
My tears will be hard to stop
But when it stops
Once again,
It will flows non stop
Can I be the first person who waiting at "there"?
I have said this sentence many many times
Because
This is my wish
No matter how long the time passed
My wish will still be the same