Simple . Difficult

Am I going to feel the pain again?
Somehow the pain has been used to me
Although its hurt...hurt..hurt...hurt...
Having a dream which is doesn't recognize by someone is tired
It feels like a burden on my shoulder
I wish I could do whatever I want
I also want to be like someone else out there
Study the course they like
Be what they want to be
It sounds so simple
But for me 
Difficult
Everyday I think about this
I could not stop thinking
When I want to stop
It just appeared in my mind 
I couldn't forget about it
I asked myself
What if I just let go of this dream?
When I do
My heart couldn't accept it
It felt even worse
I want to continue my dream 
I must to do it
If not 
I will regret forever until I die